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I try to think about my life 5 years from now, 10 years from now and picture where I want to be, where I could be, where I should be. I try to block out the negativity being channeled from peers, associates, professors... The reality of it is, nobody knows where they will be in 5 years 10 or 20years or Even if they will be here still walking this earth. I used to be that dude to have my whole life mapped out Until I figured out damn the road I had mapped out for myself in HS is here.... Its 5 years from then and that road had some bumps and turns... I ain't get to accomplish allllll the shit I had planned. Some, but not all.
I've learned not to listen to what anybody tells you you should do, you should write. You should say, Because those people aren't the ones you should be concerned with. You should only be concerned about your life, your family and what makes you and your family happy. The quest is To live YOUR life to the fullest, its your life, live it the way you want... The way that will make you happy...although it can be scary and people tend to walk through life with caution tape on the edges, or stressed out about things you can't control. ITS LIFE... Somebody told me once, the best part about life is just living, going through obstacles making decisions( even wrong ones, to gain knowledge). Here lately I've tried to live my life to the fullest I haven't been doing it to the extreme fullest but I plan on getting there... And not to say my way is the way to live, we all have different things and characteristics about us that lean toward one thing or another.... But whatever it is, if being heavily into a certain religion and faithfully dedicated and embracing all of its fruits then so be it, if living life to the fullest is traveling so be it, if its getting straight A's so be it. Whatever living life to the fullest is to you! Just do it , without asking permission. {Real brief: one the things I chose to let go and allow me to live my life to fullest would be NOT holding grudges. I've grown a lot and matured a great deal, and understand that its life people are going to do EXACTLY what they're going to do. And its my decision on the outcome or result in the matter at hand whatever it may be. Life is to short, I can't predict my last step or next breath so why be bitter while I'm here. Much easier said that done because I have such a short patience for ignorance and even shorter temper. But on the contrary I've been much better the past couple years with letting go.
So yeah that's it, man shady blogging is cool I can say whatever I want to say about whatever I want. That shit cool. Anyways... I'm not gon' shout out a lot of people just a few ( please don't hit my blackberry asking why u aint get shouted out)..... As follows:Shout out to LB doing his fuccin stuff in that O so distinguished ASSOCIATION ( Yeeaaaaauuuuppp Trey Songz voice), ASH-TRAY-GANGSTA " you aint poppin", DEL SOCORRO I need my book yo' ... I'm anxious to start that joint..... To My future wifey ( whoever she is) wassup girl, a nigga been waiting for a minute when u coming home boo, ultimate staffing agency for cutting them checks every Thursday hahaha helping m get some new jack purcells and cashmere sweater if I like to church!

- John Nickel

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